As to why in the morning we creating so it? As good enneagram 4w3 or it is my personal Scorpio Pluto during the the next house I would like learn some thing. With understanding I mean handling the latest center.

S and you may me i ultimately met within the -she indeed achieved out to me on line. (The two of us are now living in close but different countries and since out-of COVID none folks you are going to travelling) Regarding the go out she hit out i talked otherwise texted most of the go out. It is as if the atmosphere in our correspondence are kinda occupied using this -I’m not sure how to call it “want”? Stress? Mutual destination? In-may we did not do things real which i believe is right because the she are very torn due to the woman partner. (The only consider which really works between their together with husband was the new sex.

Better she along with said she’s never sensed very interested in good girl in advance of she met myself *eyeroll However, in addition important is that she actually is never considered things -with respect to which have feelings-to own a woman before she fulfilled myself. At the beginning prior to we found she must assuring myself from time to time -since i have is actually but still are extremely insecure – duh given the condition – if she extremely have thoughts personally, one to she in reality possess feelings for me. She’s got attitude in my situation and also for the husband. The woman is unhappily married btw. Plenty of monetary reliance and manipulation) S has actually this lady sun Mercury Venus and Mars in Virgo 8th domestic, including she is an effective Capricorn ascendant and you will Capricorn moonlight. North node in Taurus nevertheless about 3rd home, dos degree off the next household. So S is literally very “slow n careful” regarding thoughts (and you will materialistic?)

Early in June she while the partner kinda were assaulting plenty one she gone upstairs (it live in a property divided from inside the an effective top and lower apartment) it was for example a -quick label tho – “separation”. She asked me personally whether or not I’m able to arrive at this lady to aid this lady. Obviously Used to do *facepalm I invested thirteen weeks with her. While S did point out that in thirteen months she invested with me, she are feeling a great of course i got intimate she did feel one thing, she cannot end up being something for me now.

And i, We blame me personally to possess – In her own words forcing. while the I became thus vulnerable I remaining inquiring her how she feels in the me just in case I returned in the thirteen days I told her it’s better to not have get in touch with at least for some time while the she leftover passion sign in claiming (as i are with her) you to she cannot mode a coherent imagine. She will not know what do to along with her kids, she doesn’t have any cash, she cannot know very well what selection she want to make next.

Just like the I visited -We know – obsessively learning synastry when “any sort of we’d should not call it a romance- kinda ended

In my brain objectively (I did not research therapy and all you to definitely psychological healing having absolutely nothing) We realized she was not in just about any county to know what she seems or make a decision however I left “pushing her” to tell me exactly what she wishes. Once the I me was injured.

This woman is cannot state this woman is in love with myself as she’s to meet up with myself inside real world but so it serious commitment is actually indeed there

You have got to that is amazing I fundamentally have no responsibilities when you look at the my entire life. There isn’t a position (Really don’t you prefer one to since the God privileged myself with a decent foundation right here.) I could basically do-nothing and you may generally have no “life threatening” outcomes (and loathing me personally once you know why. In addition to simple fact that this will be an unpredictable manner. And incredibly bad for my personal mental better-being)